Can I tell you something?

'You can keep a secret right?

Yea, you can trust me.

ok............'

In CWY,nothing you do is a secret. No matter how hard you try to keep something under wrapps, chances are, pretty much everyone else in the group already knows about it. I wont get into all the scandelous things we do as a group and as individuals (maybe after the program ends;)... but let's just say no angels came to Ghana this year, at least not to Otuam...... Or Saltpond for that matter.

Anyway.....

You know when you've done something 'bad', or exciting and your first reaction is to want to tell somebody. To give out all the juicy details of how you did _________ with __________ all afternoon and didnt get caught. Or like, when someone is your friend, but something they said really bothered you, you dont want to really confront them so you take your frustrations out by telling someone else. _______ Is my really good friend, but she does this thing that seriously annoys me sometimes.

In group of 18, seperated by nationality and again by personaity, you only really have a few good friends at a time, if at all. Everyone else, you're just kind of nice to... like, pleasant and polite, then all of a sudden it all turns around and everyone is friends with different people again, so the pleasant and polite really works in your favor. If you stop being close with one person (for whatever reason) and you need someone else, people arent going to want to be your friend if you've been a total bitch in the past. Ok, enough of this... what I'm trying to say is..

Here, you feellike you can only trust a few people, so you confide in whoever it is you trust at any given time. you say things like "___________ was being so irritatng today. fuck, she's such a dumbass".... or "I went to ______________ with ___________" and it usually ends with "I trust you not to tell anyone" so you tell that person because you're under the impression thatyou completely trust them with the darkest, most incriminating details of your temporary 6 month life. Then of course, alliances change and trust shifts. Sometimes even if you stop being friends with someone, you can still trust them, but it gets complicated when they trust someone else. Someone you may not necessarily trust...

it's like "________ came to visit me, but _________ dosent know. Dont tell anyone ok?... I can trust you?.. I dont want the whole group talking about it" "Of course you can trust me".....Then it goes "So I was talking to _________ yesterday, she said ___________ came to visit, can you believe it? she told me not to tell anyone, but I'm telling you because i trust you, ok? she'll be really mad if she hears about it" "Oh yea yea, of course you can trust me. Wow, so _____________ really went to visit her? I wonder what they talked about?... probably feelings? haha... weird they hang out.. _______________ wouldnt be happy to hear about it" "I know right!".... Then again and again and again til the story's gone around 9 or even 18 times; sometimes it even comes back to ou completely different.

Anyway... There's no closure to this blog. Just another experience of Canada World Youth, another life lesson to learn, another thing we deal with day to day.